The month is over.
I’m letting things get the best of me and being reactive hasn’t been the best. Neither is putting my issues on others.
Grin and bear it.
It’s getting harder to fake it and I’m resenting myself for all of it.
It’s embarrassing to keep up a charade that no longer fits. It’s nonsensical to expect something different out of the same story.
Having integrity requires a great amount of persistence. It takes dedication and commitment.
The more I preach about certain things, the more I realize how far removed I am from that actual thing. Saying one thing and doing something different all the time is the spiral. Being so disconnected to the point of the same self loathing cycle has become repulsive.
A lot has been so repulsive, yet holding on to it for dear life has been the solution. The act of doing something else—the complete opposite—is betrayal that fuels the rest.
